i hate this

I like to ruin
And involve myself with things I don't know
I'm worthless
The fact is I shouldn't really open my mouth or spend that money or lie
I'm undeserving
I'm rude and careless
lazy and weak
why am I so insensitive
I want o run
I want to cry
I want to scream
I like to write stories but can't manage my own
I really do “ruin everything”
I say the wrong thing
I never do my work right
I want the end result before the basics
This glass house can't take anymore stones

dear reader I'm feeling worse and worse each day