PRADA FUGGIN SILK PANTIES!!!!!

you know what really burns me the fuck up....! the fact that i cant give blood cus i like boys and yes I've had sex with. yes there's nothing wrong with me but whats worse what truly soul killing and hurting and makes me want to ask why!!!!!!!!!!! is that someone told me to...

"just lie about your sexual preference they test it anyway"............

Nothing on this god given earth should EVER EVER make you want to lie about who you are I'd rather know I have a virus with dignity then to lie and then find out hey I'm a liar and I have aids. I'm not gonna lie about who I am so I can do something YES I know its the right thing to do to donate blood trust me I want to I have wanted to since forever...... but I don't want to deny who the fuck I am I shouldn't have to tell you who I am and then have you judge me whether or not I can help someone else out. what on this green planet should ever make someone feel like they shouldn't give blood? NOTHING the day I deny that I'm gay, christian, Hispanic or anything else is day I become NOTHING and non existent.... still we fight for equal marriage its not just marriage guys its EQUAL LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! honestly what is this Nazi Germany? I'm afraid of what will happen in the future..........

booze, belligerence and valentines day

dear reader I cannot hold my liquor. last night was a night of drunken debauchery. The day was yes valentines day (which proved to be absolutely boring) I did nothing all day with my good friend kayla page (luv dat betch). any-who at 11 the magic happened. earlier in the week our lovely friend invited us to a valentines day kick back. not much a kick back than a room full crazy ass drunk party people giving each other lap dances (so overall A+). We left as soon as a party member started to lick booze of his shirtless torso. Afterwords I stumbled back with my good friend KP (who didn't stumble at all). After returning to the humble apartment I was notified a lovely beer gathering was in progress ( beer I couldn't possibly...well if you insist *gulp gulp*). there I met a Guy (this Guy will have a bigger part in my story) so said Guy and I agreed not to make out because we're both looking for true relationships and such..... yeah sure I'm not cute betch that's why..... anywho after a couple of keg kneels?(4.30 seconds) and making out with some girls half the party except for me the Guy and friendzy emma clark decided to head out to jack 'n' the box and get food. Well they got stalked and stuff happened and my friend almost got into a fight yeah yeah...... I had to sober quickly cus the Guy wanted to drive home. so with the fear of him not being able to even make it out the amda gate in his car emma and I decided to at any cost stop him actin' up a bitch and scream. emma and I decided to start persuading him with candy, heart stickers, kisses and smoke? well emma got like twelve minutes of intense making out lucky betch. but he started to threaten us with violence. :( after getting the Guy outside to smoke the group came back from he burger run telling us their story of grand entrapment and what not (I used a big word ! ^.^). another several hours after of just getting the GUY to crash on campus and almost getting violent with my Fuucy he sobered up some how and drove home later apologizing to the host of such a gathering for being and ass both drunk and sober. well that was 5 in the morning and now it is 218 I'm getting ready to go on my date with the cutest first semester this side of the St Andrea's Fault well I hope all had a good day and night and wish me luck luv for all

im a little bitch

OK so I guess I'm spineless aren't I..... it was brought to my attention the other day during rehearsal that my inability to make lighter start summed me up?......(well it was windy) but really am I really that helpless sometimes well I don't want to be anymore I wont just sit back I want to be more proactive I guess its time to stop just blaming my childhood and past experiences and just fix it right? well hopefully I can......gwah

welll whaddya know

OK so I finally after a long absence I've come back to you mister blogg to hold ya tell you a little private story. So far what has happened in the life and times of ...me... well

I MET CHARLES STROUSE!!!!
( the unbelievably cute and old composer of annie and bye bye birdie)

slam poetry is awesome I've found a easy medium to express myself

I finally grew balls and asked someone out even though it really almost killed :)
(which by the way im sorry I just am not used to asking guys out its just not me but I'm learning)

I think my singing has improved just bit cus I think I sounded better in my voice lesson
(I taking bigger risks and what not I guess)

uhm I lost my debit card but got a ew one just need the pin number >:(

the warm-ups are going great :)

hmmmmm
I wrote a poem slam poetry performance worthy

I'm doing sweet transvestite for a free choice is class

I've realized how much work is actually needed for this damn school and I for some reason I am enjoying it?

uhm my dates Sunday at 400 wish me lucks and to be calm and just myself

uhm ........I was glad to know them.....the end